When I was a baby girl my legs were severely deformed. They were bent in at the knees at such a sharp angle that I was crippled and unable to walk. Thankfully the condition was able to be corrected through the use of full leg braces that I would need to wear every day, 24 hours a day for about 18 months. As I wore the braces the healing process was going along well and at 3 years of age I walked for the first time. Unfortunately the braces were painful and uncomfortable to wear and my mother says I whined and complained constantly. Eventually, after only 6 months of wearing them, she choose to abort the process so that I would be comfortable.
Although I was able to walk after that, my legs were still deformed. All throughout my life I have struggled to walk and I was teased mercilessly growing up because of my partially deformed legs. My insecurity about my legs added to the low self-esteem that led me to dress provocatively as I got older. By show-casing my sexuality in my dress, it took the negative attention off of my legs and placed some “positive attention” on my feminine beauty. I liked the attention so much that I eventually became an exotic dancer, which led to my involvement in prostitution.
Just imagine… One year of discomfort could have spared me from a life time of severe emotional scars and painful memories to bear. Sometimes what we have to go through to get truly healed is uncomfortable and maybe even downright painful. Many times in life, when spiritual and emotional deformities cripple our ability to walk in Righteousness and destiny, we opt for comfort instead of healing, due to the difficulty of completing the healing process. If you keep facing the same trial over and over again you need to be honest with yourself about how you are processing through your emotional deformities. Are you repeatedly aborting God’s prescribed healing process in order to comfort yourself? Opt for permanent healing instead of temporary comfort so that you can not struggle to walk, but run and soar into the fullness of your destiny!
In the Power of Love,
Prolific Author and Speaker Specializing in Sex, Intimacy and Relationships from a Holistic Perspective – Spirit, Soul & Body
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